Dare I Say

A year from previous eight months
Not a single second can tell
Fifty years from now
No fate can speak up its mind for our existence
I’ve been dying from the moment I crave your scent
Right up till now
You are my forever and unforgotten
Sometimes, just sometimes
Everything I wish for is only a slight of you
But never once your story is about me
I’m dreaming awake
Dreaming to miss you
Dreaming to grasp a second moment of you beings
For this moment of truth
For this moment of flashback
For this moment of desperation
Dare I say
I’ve been missing you for so long

Favourite Doll

Let’s play a game
Tell me all the rules
And I let you win
I’m following your lead
So guide me right with your detriment
I will watch you doing your victory dance
While I’m lying here in exhaustion
With my eyes opened
With my brain straightened up
As I start remembering every length of your words
As I begin to drop a tear
Then I’ll be crawling to you on icy ground
Just to feel the coldness rising to my brain
Then I begin to numb
For my boneless spirit is all there is
And I’m down to be your favourite doll

Happy Birthday to me (15th July)

Another year I claim of total difference
A melancholy over forceful tears
There comes the exhaustion in me
But nothing more than excitement rushing
I like it for the day
Exception for a great companionship
Forget about tomorrow and stand tall from tediousness
Forget about numbers and stand up taller
I’ve had the worst
And waiting for the best
I’m having my best
For the rest of my memories
Finally I’m having my best
On this birthday
For a great companionship

Adding More

If you could count the sadness in you
How many do you have?
How many more could you endure?
How big is a big heart?
How tough is a tough person?
If dream can be shattered
How many pieces can it be?
How many times can it be replaced?

I scare me in the mirror
And a whole lot more other people in their reflection of eyes
Not me carries the thrill
Just demon in them turning my gravity to hell
They’re laughing, but who gives a damn?
She’s laughing, and I’m crushed
She’s one of them, the queen bee of all demons
She’s breaking my faith
Crying my heart out with dry eyes
Freezing again in this solitary form of agony
Be the one who scared in their laughter
Changing my faith
Fading my colour
Adding more sadness

Teman Untukmu

Hentakan kaki ini bukanlah tak berarah
Hentakan kaki ini menuju pada butanya mimpi masa depan
Dengarkan aku dengan telinga terutup
Dan mungkin kau akan membuka hatimu
Bukan kehilangan yang kita takuti
Tapi kejauhan
Rasa sementara yang seakan membunuh jiwa dalam hitungan detik
Walau selamanya membangunkan tubuh yang sempurna
Biarkan letih datang bagai kebosanan gerak
Biarkan penat yang dirasa bagai lemahnya otot
Aku akan berjalan bukan padamu
Aku akan menari pada indahnya nada
Pada indahnya sedihmu disaat keseorangan yang kau rasakan
Aku sebagai kontradiksimu
Dan biarkan gerak kaku hasil jariku ini menjadi
teman untukmu

Help Me As You Leave Me

Never expect greatness from me
Because you do not know what you might get
Never hope for anything I am not
Because I might be your worst nightmare
I get it
I’m all for the gravity that carries me
But I’m not the one to rule or stand on my own
I need my spare legs for I’m limping through the way
I am weak as I cripple through the walk of shame
Hate me for all you want
It might be the best thing to do
But love me if you can
For I need strength to push me forward
Forward to that straight line I see
Not backward to a place I scare the most
Help me as you leave me

That Was Just a Dream

I had finally found you
I was not certain but I saw you
We didn’t say much
We didn’t speak anything at all
I knew you loved me
You knew I loved you
I took you hand
Pulled you to a path I wasn’t aware of
But I took your hand
You accepted mine as I dragged you to a closer space of mine
There was wind
Wind of your scent as I began to notice
I could breathe the same air for as long as I lived
We became closer and closer as our skin adjoined
I could feel you in my both hands now
As I walked with pride for you were next to me
And it disappeared

It was only a dream