Help Me As You Leave Me

Never expect greatness from me
Because you do not know what you might get
Never hope for anything I am not
Because I might be your worst nightmare
I get it
I’m all for the gravity that carries me
But I’m not the one to rule or stand on my own
I need my spare legs for I’m limping through the way
I am weak as I cripple through the walk of shame
Hate me for all you want
It might be the best thing to do
But love me if you can
For I need strength to push me forward
Forward to that straight line I see
Not backward to a place I scare the most
Help me as you leave me

That Was Just a Dream

I had finally found you
I was not certain but I saw you
We didn’t say much
We didn’t speak anything at all
I knew you loved me
You knew I loved you
I took you hand
Pulled you to a path I wasn’t aware of
But I took your hand
You accepted mine as I dragged you to a closer space of mine
There was wind
Wind of your scent as I began to notice
I could breathe the same air for as long as I lived
We became closer and closer as our skin adjoined
I could feel you in my both hands now
As I walked with pride for you were next to me
And it disappeared

It was only a dream

Just For Now

I don’t own my life
I might be in my body
But my body is never mine
All I have said is just phrases of junk ready to be demolished
I talk crap with the mind of rubbish
I’m shattered with every piece falling inside of me
I’m suffocated with every breath cutting out of my heart
But I like me for every inch I have
I adore my life for not being mine
And I’m profoundly keen on every disposal crap out from me
For every piece falling out inside me
I’m obsessed with the depression that glues me back together
For every breath cutting out of my heart
I desire the air of my vulnerable cubicle
It makes me odd for saying this
But if I’ve ever reckoned my current awareness again
I’m willing to let the words out of my mouth
That I cherish every little bit dejection I have in me
Just for right now
I love me for being agonized by me and everything surrounds me

Own My Soul

Another day endures my hesitation
Another limitless time of lingering
That’s okay I can pause my existence
You are my compulsive act of behaviour
My malicious form of excitement
I am blank for my prediction
I foretell nothing but hollow
If you are worthwhile
You’re determined as my most glorious possession
But if you are not
You’re still designated as my most gracious imagination
I have this gigantic invisible weight on my chest waiting to be let out
I’m imbecilic for my knowledge
I have too much pride in me to learn
Or maybe I’m just conceited to show it
But for whatever it takes
I still need you to know
My soul is still lasting to be owned by you

Fear No Death

Nothing more about passion
Nothing more about hopes and dreams
Leave them behind as you figure out ways to live
The further away they drag you
The more your heart desires them
The closer the get to you
The more your heart fears them
I have my passion
I have my addiction
It is neither desiring nor fearing
I await my death
I await white light comes calling me
My passion is not for me to reach
My hopes and dreams are for me to seek and destroy
So I leave them behind as I live
My addiction is no more my passion
My addiction is my death
For any reason in the whole world
I fear no death

Mending My Grief

My head never spin
My heart never yearns
I’m imperfect
I misjudge
My head is spinning
My heart is yearning
If I could have just one more day
You might be gone
If I could have just two more days
You are gone completely
I’m not a liar for my misfortune words
I’m a liar because you lie
Can I feel great now?
Can I feel better again?
I always know the utter answer
Right after I’m mending my grief

My Repugnance

I hate you for being so vulnerable
I hate you for your cowardice
I hate you for your defenceless power
But for the most part
I hate you for doing this to me
I hate you to my guts I’m disgusted by the thought of you
How could you do this?
Not to me but to yourself
The world can fall on you as hard as it gets
I can talk gibberish for as long as the words let me
But tell me what is it for?
Even the brightest sunshine ever there is
You call it darkness for your misery
I can yield myself up to say this
Even if it is so much for you to hate me back