My Repugnance

I hate you for being so vulnerable
I hate you for your cowardice
I hate you for your defenceless power
But for the most part
I hate you for doing this to me
I hate you to my guts I’m disgusted by the thought of you
How could you do this?
Not to me but to yourself
The world can fall on you as hard as it gets
I can talk gibberish for as long as the words let me
But tell me what is it for?
Even the brightest sunshine ever there is
You call it darkness for your misery
I can yield myself up to say this
Even if it is so much for you to hate me back