How Fragile You Are

Oh look how fragile you are
Telling yourself over and over again you regret this life
Hating yourself all over again like flashback memories that never perish
Apart from your disastrous judgment
There’s a sensible perception waiting to crack open
There won’t be a funeral
For you will never die
Trust me when I say
People will acknowledge your beings
Even in the dark
Even in a slump
Remember that plan?
Remember that dream?
Remember your song of excitement?
Sing it to me once more
Sing it to me at the top of your lungs
Let me hear joy other than your catastrophic cry
And let go your pain as you roar out your soul

A Pleasant Welcome

Take me to your world
I want to protect you from your own menace
Be a shield for your uncovered body
And a shelter to restore back your true colours
I want to be the shadow of your whole figure
Following every inch of your movement
I want to be the reflection of your mirror
Watching every bit of your expression
Don’t you worry about me
You have all my approval to leave me in the dark
I’ll be as light as snow falling on your shoulder
I will do you no harm and nothing but to worship you
You can shout directly at me
And I’ll whisper softly on your ear
You can strike me with your knuckle
And I’ll brush your hair gently with my fingers
All that is what I have to offer you
Greet me with a pleasant welcome
And please take me to your world

Vinegar to My Wound

I’m heading for brightness
I’m clinging for positivity
I’m dressing for acceptance
What’s good enough?
Something that isn’t me at all
I’m staying in my moment
Waiting for whatever to come
Waiting for pride waiting for a downfall
When it comes
I’ll be you escort to find me as I’m sinking to the bottom of the sea
Leave me there for a moment
Let my tears dissolve along with the water
And let my eyes be burnt by the saltiness
Put a hold on me as I swim back to the shore
Minute by minute
Second by second
Count away for it might be my revival
But for whatever to come
It’s just going to be vinegar to my wound

Lines for...

Tell me what to think
Tell me what to do
I'm your oblivion
You're free to put me under your command
I'm your slave
I'll do as you've told
Tell me now or I'll be dead as your shadow...

You're a diamond in my eyes
You shine through among others I've seen
My time belongs to you
And your body is what makes me whole
Ask me to stay and I'll stay
Ask me to leave and I'll leave

I May Die In Peace

At the same time same place last week
I was mastering my feelings
I was on top of the hill ready to fall anytime forward
At the same time same place current moment
I am losing what’s mine to feel
I am rolling down the hill as the bottom starts calling me in
Remind me again if I’ve forgotten this
But never
Never to say I’ve lost the power of perceiving
Because I haven’t
I’m ready to put away those questions mark
Left me with no answers I want to know badly
If I don’t die now I may die in peace for your worrier
Just a moment further
Just as it is not now
I may die in peace

Whenever Wherever Whatever

I have come to love you
And let this be the time I leave
You have become the blood in my vein
And let this be a knife for your escape
Fear not for you as it is for me
I fear myself to let this heart beats the way it shouldn’t
I fear myself to have delivered demons in me
So let me stay in my solitude
Not pointing my mind on you
And I promise you my memory from your tormented soul
I promise you my heart as any time you wish to have it
I promise you me
Whenever wherever whatever

Accept My Glee

I’m trying to cheer you up
But I’m sorry for I do not know how
I’m not funny or hilarious
Amusing does not seem to be the words I can use to draw a smiley on your face
For I am sad and anxious just like you
But hear me say this
Look at the clouds in the sky, sometimes they make cute patterns
Cute enough to put a smile on your crying heart
Maybe I can sing for you
Maybe I can dance with you
Or maybe I can write this for you
But what do I know
I’m just as sad and anxious as you
I’m sorry for I’ve failed this
Maybe you could put your misery in me
Let me cure it and I’ll return it back to you
I’ll be the one who suffers
And please accept my glee as a gift for you
I may make it sounds so silly
But you are too my joy
I can’t let agony is the only place you can stay in
So please,
Accept my glee for you

Goodbye to You

It is finally figured out
Wouldn’t be a dilemma for me anymore
Real or surreal, it stays as a memoir to me anyway
I’m not sad
I’m not anxious
Just disappointment waiting for me to let it in
Maybe I could just keep my door’s locked and I’ll be fine
Maybe I could just stay numb like I’m always determined to be
I’m not fine
I’m not alright
But I’m stable with myself
I’m controlling my feet to move forward no matter how hard
No matter how those nails are ready to be pointed at me
At least I’m not falling
I’m just bleeding with holes
Bleeding and keep on walking
Leaving my blood behind as I’m recovered…again and again
It's not even started yet
It’s not your fault to blame
But it is a goodbye to you

How Do You Know?

It feels like ages
Having this numbness as my profitable friend
But not so numb anymore
How can you tell?
When a picture comes to mind, is that how?
When a heart beats faster till you can hear it even in crowded room, is that how?
My oblivion comes knocking on me
Offers me a contradictory
I would say I accept it
But how can I, if it’s not seen by my own eyes?
How can I, if it’s not heard by my own ears?
My belief…feeling is my massive treasure
My feeling…has been a numbness to my brain
I fall and stand up again with my own two feet
I have recovered and choosing the solid form of my thoughts
So when it happens,
How do you know again?

Stranger to Love

It is more than that
Choosing you among the faces I see
Reading your misery as part of my greatest adventure
It is more than leaving messages through your inbox
It is more than questions to ask
We may be surreal to each other
But what is real accompanied by pain and sadness
I’m not going to state you’re my friend
Coz what is friend to call without names in mind
I can feel your gloomy world
Trust me I can
But don’t say I’m them
Coz I’m not
Neither are you
See me through a big bright wall
I’m not transparent
But you can always feel I’m shining your eyes through my colour
I can’t be your summer in winter
I can’t be your reason to want to stay in this filthy world
But if it is ever too late
I just wanna say
We might be strangers to each other
But you’re my stranger to love
Please be alive until reality is ours

How Did I Get Here?

It was months ago I pulled myself away from the big black hole
Nothing more than a relief for my breath
It was weeks ago the shiniest sunshine brightened my dark sight
Everything was back in perfect straight line
It was minutes ago I heard steps of evil rushing back to me again
Anything can happen to me any minute
It was moments ago I freed my soul
And now I’m huddled back to the mass of dust
It was afternoon when I gasped clean air
Feeling lighter than ever
It is now night time when I try to haul away a sightless mass of rocks
How did I get here?