Place to Rest

Have you ever seen the sky this blue
Like one of those colours in cartoon movie
Have you ever smelled the grass this fresh
Like one of those imaginations from a perfect world
Have you ever been so sick of human
You just want to be left alone
Have you ever been so tired of mandatory battle
You just don’t care anymore
I want to be left alone
I don’t care anymore
But I do when you appear
You are the button to press when I’m shutting down
Even just a slender semblance of you
Even just a tiny little glance to make me smile
Even just for a second wake-up call
You are a place to rest

Welcome You

I’ve had good experiences
They’re all gone
I’ve had good fantasies
They’re just come and now they’re gone
I’m putting my body to rest
This sound comes catching my breath
Giving the heat to my body as I haul the blanket away
It’s still heat I’m feeling
My fantasies are completely gone now
Left me with my worst imagination
Trying to make contact with the cold weather
But the heat effaces my body
Let me rest now
As I welcome you again
My beloved never ending
nightmare

Dedication to My Nightmare

Once I was a sailor
I sailed away my boat
Down to rest and left the dock again
Once I was a painter
I painted the beauty of sunrise
Put some colours on and threw it all away
Once I was a hero
I served with naivety
Smiled through my way of freedom
And cried on my way home
But now I’m just a writer
With broken fingers I write broken words
Spelling letters to words
Words to sentences
I write till the end
I write till I stop
I write as a dedication to my nightmare

Dare I Say

A year from previous eight months
Not a single second can tell
Fifty years from now
No fate can speak up its mind for our existence
I’ve been dying from the moment I crave your scent
Right up till now
You are my forever and unforgotten
Sometimes, just sometimes
Everything I wish for is only a slight of you
But never once your story is about me
I’m dreaming awake
Dreaming to miss you
Dreaming to grasp a second moment of you beings
For this moment of truth
For this moment of flashback
For this moment of desperation
Dare I say
I’ve been missing you for so long

Favourite Doll

Let’s play a game
Tell me all the rules
And I let you win
I’m following your lead
So guide me right with your detriment
I will watch you doing your victory dance
While I’m lying here in exhaustion
With my eyes opened
With my brain straightened up
As I start remembering every length of your words
As I begin to drop a tear
Then I’ll be crawling to you on icy ground
Just to feel the coldness rising to my brain
Then I begin to numb
For my boneless spirit is all there is
And I’m down to be your favourite doll

Happy Birthday to me (15th July)

Another year I claim of total difference
A melancholy over forceful tears
There comes the exhaustion in me
But nothing more than excitement rushing
I like it for the day
Exception for a great companionship
Forget about tomorrow and stand tall from tediousness
Forget about numbers and stand up taller
I’ve had the worst
And waiting for the best
I’m having my best
For the rest of my memories
Finally I’m having my best
On this birthday
For a great companionship

Adding More

If you could count the sadness in you
How many do you have?
How many more could you endure?
How big is a big heart?
How tough is a tough person?
If dream can be shattered
How many pieces can it be?
How many times can it be replaced?

I scare me in the mirror
And a whole lot more other people in their reflection of eyes
Not me carries the thrill
Just demon in them turning my gravity to hell
They’re laughing, but who gives a damn?
She’s laughing, and I’m crushed
She’s one of them, the queen bee of all demons
She’s breaking my faith
Crying my heart out with dry eyes
Freezing again in this solitary form of agony
Be the one who scared in their laughter
Changing my faith
Fading my colour
Adding more sadness